Confessions of an engineering machan

Yeah, you like her. But it's just too late now. Can't do much. Yeah, overthinking kills. You are just a dyslexic weirdo now. All you can do is repel. Do anything and everything to move her away from you. Cuz you don't wanna hurt her. Cuz you know she deserves better. Sigh. Like the old man said, Only need the light when it's burning low  Only miss the sun when it starts to snow  Only know you love her when you let her go Only know you've been high when you're feeling low  Only hate the road when you're missing home  Only know you love her when you let her go...

I already know what you’re about. I already know that you already miss someone, where in fact, you wonder what it would feel like to miss that person. Missing someone isn’t just “a thing” that one plans to feel. You don’t look at the person you love and think to yourself “I’m going to miss you one day.” You never plan to ever miss that person, because that person is never someone that you’d expect to miss. They’ll always be there, right? Wrong. Sometimes they’re not always there. Sometimes they leave your life out of nowhere and all that’s left is their memory. Sometimes you might not care at first, and then when the absence of their presence fully sinks in, it’s too late and you can’t handle it. Sometimes they’re permanently gone, and there is nothing you can do about it. Do you ever fully forget somebody? Does the day of their birthday, ever become a regular day of the year? Do you just forget the days you’ve spent together? That time in the class, or that special time on the phone, ...